I have wanted to do this post since the longest time. But I guess I was saving it for the P of the A to Z blogging challenge. But as they say, better late than never.
When I first received the confirmation of my pregnancy, I was a mixed bag. I didn’t know what to feel. I felt happy because we had succeded in achieving what we wanted to. But other than that I was very anxious and majorly embarrassed.
The first trimester was a tough time. I had severe morning sickness and nausea. I hated myself for giving in to the idea of getting pregnant. I almost secretly wished something bad would happen so that I could be free again. I know it’s evil but the morning sickness lasted all day, day after day and was really really bad.
The second trimester was the best time of the entire pregnancy. The morning sickness was gone. The tummy was not so huge. And there were the kicks and hiccups and cravings. Although the cravings are not as hyper as they show in the movies. But yes pretty drastic. Like I don’t eat spicy food at all. But when I was expecting, I craved spicy food all the time. No wonder my girl is a teekhi mirchi 😉
And finally the last semester, full of leg cramps, swollen feet, full bladder, tummy the size of an earthen pot and the anxiety of the impending big day. Will it be normal? Will it be a c-section? Will it be painful? Have we stocked up everything we need? Are we really prepared for this?
Despite all this, now I understand why people gush so much about pregnancy. It’s not just about birthing a child. It’s about the miracle of a woman’s body to nurture a child, a living being inside her body, take care of all its needs, and yet go on about her life as non chalantly as ever. It’s about doing things she would otherwise never do only for the sake of the child. And bear that pain, which I don’t think can be described in words, to welcome the child in this world.
Ever since the birth of my little one, I feel like a super woman. Like God’s blessed child to have experienced this enigma, this mystery. And the gift is mine to keep for the rest of my life 🙂