The story of this space

A few people messaged me asking why this new place. Well, how do I say this? Let me try 🙂

Do you all remember your 20s? All the confusions, all the mistakes, all the learning, all the growing up in a single decade? Overwhelming, right? I feel much more settled in my 30s, and I don’t mean it only from a professional or financial point of view. I mean it from a very personal, self centered point of view. I now know which things require my energy and which don’t. I now know how to not let things that I have no control over affect me. I am trying to go with the flow and accept more. No, I am still not perfect. But I know a little bit more.

So, every time I went back to the old blog and tried to write, I couldn’t. I tried reading my old posts and they made me laugh. I was like, “who’s this confident girl doling out all this gyaan?”. That’s definitely not me. I now know I can no longer talk about things in a black and white kind of way. I discuss a lot in the grey areas. And after a lot of introspection, I understood that, that person and that space is not mine anymore. Even though I wouldn’t change a thing about any of it. All of that was necessary for me to be here.

So, with a very loving heart, still preserving that space, it was time to create this space where I am now able to write freely and openly. I don’t feel bound to carry on ‘that’ voice from the 20s. That’s no longer me. 

So, that’s the story of how this space, my another baby was born.

Hello!

I wrote my first blog post way back in 2010. And here I am , a decade later, writing the same Hello World post again. The only difference being that this time I am writing it on my own website.

I always wanted to make a website for my work, but never got around to do so. Laziness is a virtue that I am not a very proud owner of. Nevertheless, better late than never, here I am.

This website is very new and still under construction. And that’s because I am working on it myself. From buying a domain to setting it up to designing. I am taking it slow but enjoying the process. This is my little project for the COVID-19 quarantine holidays.

So, welcome again. I am so excited to be writing again after a long self imposed hiatus. I am looking forward to interacting with all of you again. Also, look around and let me know your feedback or suggestions about anything.

Until the next time, take care. Stay safe. 

E emotes Emotional!

Like the 2 sides of a coin, every decision in life comes with its pros and cons. Or to put it in context, 2 sets of emotions. The husband is flying out of country tonight for work. While we are elated at the news because it is an opportunity for him to grow in his professional life, it also means a disturbance in our personal lives because of the separation. This time, doubly hard, because of the kid involved 🙁

We have been separated by the long distance before. And I have been known to bawl my eyes out a week before the departure. And these were just intercity separations. I had no idea how I was going to fare this time. Different country and all. But as I bade goodbye to my sweetheart with a smile on my face, I felt like I have grown up. I was sad and I was tensed. Being with a 4 month old, all alone for the next 30-40 days isn’t child’s play. Pun intended 🙂 But the responsibility of the child did not weaken me. Infact it strengthened me to take it up head on. Motherhood and it’s learnings never stop I guess.

I have always wondered how our emotions shape our entire life, from our careers to our families. Because how we react to situations depends on our emotional quotient and our reactions to situations shapes our life. Most of us carry so much emotional baggage all the time. And sometimes, despite knowing the pitfalls of it, we can’t help but give in to it.

Because our IQ is just the tip of the iceberg!

But today, I surprised myself. Not a tear. A smile 🙂 And a prayer for his safety and success. Emotional intelligence, here I come 🙂