An ode to 2017..

Saying that this year was life changing for me, would be an understatement. The year started with us planning a trip to Thailand for our 6th wedding anniversary. It was a great vacation, with beach visits and lots of family time. 3 months later, H was packing off to US. Goodbyes are never easy. And it is always a difficult time with S, missing him and being totally uncooperative.But in the middle of that life, I got an opportunity to visit Leh with my parents, while the grandparents babysat lil S. Leh trip, as expected, was incredible. We traveled from one mountainous region to another, braving hot sun, rain, and even snowfall. It is one place where the pictures don’t do any justice. The panoramic view is something that you take in and remember. You can’t ever capture the magnanimity of the landscape.

But the cake for change has to be, our move to this country, that I am now trying to call home. I have gone over this decision a thousand times in my head, and each time I came out convinced that it was wrong. I love my country, my city, with all it’s fallacies. I didn’t want to move here. Leaving behind my job, my financial independence, my parents, and friends. To start a new life. All over again.
But then, who said, Life was fair. H convinced me that it was best for our daughter who was really struggling with the pollution levels in NCR. And thankfully has been doing great health wise, ever since we landed here.

There are some things that you can never prepare yourself for. Like, being at home, tending to the house and cooking all day, without a “job”. So here I am, with a lot of time which I am utilizing to watch all the movies I missed owing to the “job”. Life is definitely coming a full circle, right? I am also finding it really difficult to maintain a routine because, you guessed it, no job. The first month was miserable with a feeling of listlessness and total loss of control. Slowly, I am beginning to really enjoy all this spare time and revel in being totally aimless. Until it’s time to get back to the real world.

And finally, I am slowly conquering my fear of cooking. I have never had any interest in cooking, and always made sure to avoid it. In fact, during my 3 year stay in Bangalore, I never took up a flat because that would require maintaining a kitchen. And so I always stayed put in a PG where a maid cooked for us. The maid arrangement continued after our marriage until…now. Never say never, right? After I moved here, I have been cooking at least 3 hot meals a day. I even managed to bake cookies which, if I may add, turned out quite yummy.

Home made cookies, anyone?

The way life has been throwing curve balls at us every year, I am quite convinced that I don’t really need any New Year Resolutions. I should just learn to swim with the flow, and learn the lessons along the way. How about that for a New Year Resolution? 🙂

The Year that was – 2014 !

This has been an year of firsts. And the good news is, mostly positive !
I wanted to write this year end post last year, but new mommy hood kept me away from the blog. But this year 🙂

I think I entered this year cleaning a soiled bum and nurturing a wailing infant. At that time, I could have hardly imagined the kind of roller roaster this year was going to turn into. At one point when I was taking care of the little one alone during my maternity leave (as I was unable to find a full time maid), I was  quite proud of myself. Even though during the day, sometimes it led to frustrations as well. And then came the news of the husband travelling to onsite for a month. We were excited and anxious in equal measures. And then, I was literally all alone for a month with a 4- month old. And to top it, I had signed up for the A-Z blogging challenge before I got the news of onsite travel. So for that one month, I slogged the day with the little one, and wrote my blog post for the next day when she slept. I was and am so proud of finishing the challenge without any cheating 🙂

By this time, the husband ‘s stay in Germany got extended by 3 months. My maternity leave was already over. After a lot of negotiations, I was allowed to work from home for a month. Difficult days. The little one hardly slept at night. I worked during the day when she slept. Finally it was time for me to join office full time. I shifted to my parents’ place. I drove a 100 kms to and from the office while my mother took care of the hyperactive little one. The stress of it all gives me jitters now. The weather unbearably hot, the traffic jams unending, work at office and a hyperactive toddler at home. In the meantime, I also started the process to get our papers in line so that both of us could visit the husband in Germany.

The story of how actually I got done everything alone, running around government offices all alone is  albeit a long one, and long overdue. I will definitely be sharing it in another blogpost. And then came our much awaited Euro trip. We traveled around Germany, Paris, Switzerland and Amsterdam. Needless to say, it kind of made up for all the past months of rigor.

This year also saw us celebrating little one’s first festivals. She has brought so much joy in our lives…it’s hard to express. The husband finally came back after 8 long months. I think this was also our first long separation after marriage. And that too when our baby was so tiny. We could have hardly ever imagined it.

And then, finally, came the little one’s first birthday. Everyone in the family was so so excited about it. I have already written about it

here

. It was also our first party as hosts. And I am glad things went as planned. It makes me so happy even today, as this was the first time we contacted decorators, bakers and go everything customized. Thankfully, everything turned out to our taste as well

I think this is also the first time I have realized my own potential. Of taking things in my stride and doing them well. Of my strengths. Of my patience and love. This year, I am really proud of outdoing myself in every which way. And for the first time, I am not going to be modest about it.

I already told you, “this was an year of firsts”!! 🙂

The year end, although, has brought in a lot of introspection. Let’s see where it takes me next year!
Adieus amigos until then. See you all on the other side. Keep up your awesomeness until then 🙂